a conversation
Here's a window into a conversation I have been having with someone in my community. The issue at hand is a disagreement over a decision I made. It pertains to someone whom I am allowing to "be in leadership" (mind you a very minute role) who doesn't have his "christian life credentials." Let's just say him and his girlfriend aren't exactly sleeping in serperate beds. The fact is he doesn't know Christ well. This it:


"Your perspective could very well be better than mine here or vise versa. But at some point, as you probably understand, we have to step out there and do something. This is the role of the leader. It is a risk. It is not a decision to be made lightly. It may flop. But hey, that's the dividing factor between a company like Intel and the kingdom of God. A company like Intel doesn't have much room for mistakes (especially with the economy the way it is) it must succeed in its mission - it's existence depends on that. But the in the Kingdom of God, the mission is God's. He initiated it. And its depends on him acting and working in our lives. And all of this happens under the prevailing cover of grace. The mission won't fail because we fail, but it will succeed because God makes it succeed. All that to say that there is room in the Kingdom of God for mistakes. By trying to control everything to the degree that "we never make mistakes" we might be living on the under the false notion that it is up to us to accomplish what only God can do.

That's my heart out in plain text. The truth is I usually try not to make mistakes because I am afraid of what others might say or do. I sense God calling me out of that way of living. He wants me to trust him and for right now, for me that means taking risks that may be mistakes.

Disclaimer: this doesn't mean I care more about my own personal spiritual development than everyone else's in the cell. If I felt like my decision had the potential to hurt a lot of people I would have never made it. But this is just where I am at."

Maybe I am way off, that's just the way it looks to me.


- posted by Jacob B. @ 12:36 PM