I just noticed something. I was (just a second ago) reading an email reply that is negatively critiquing some of the things i have been thinking/believing/living lately. As I read the opening lines I felt something...a fear, a dred, deep in my chest..."What the hell am I doing?" "What if word get's out?" "I'll lose my job!" "What if I am totally wrong?" For a second the feeling took shape in those words.

As I sit here the feeling still lingers. The email window is minimized below. Do I have the courage (faith) to read on? Oh Jesus I want to trust you even if into the darkness we go. Here we go...
- posted by Jacob B. @ 2:14 PM